sup ladies

i did my first silkscreen tonight!
i am going to see crispin glover on saturday!

this semester is the best and worst one yet!

newest print

looks like a silkscreen but its photolitho.

i am a failure

i like spending hours upon hours not sleeping with nothing to show for it except for some awful shitty prints i dont even want to associate myself with. SIGGGHHHH.

i am in a weird place. mixed up priorities.

time to make a to-do list.

i just received this message on facebook. this is from this kid i met and bought my first print from when i was a freshman... he sort of influenced me to become a printmaker.


"Justin gave me a copy of your more human than human print. I LOVE IT. So good! Your grasp of multicolor/layering combined with an excellent design/color scheme combined with a unique sense of humor basically guarantee you success within the print world provided you are willing to work really hard at pushing yourself! I very much look forward to seeing more new work! You are miles ahead of people that have been involved w/ print for much longer than you. SUCCESS!

love,

jeremy"



feeling good.

its weird to be in the situation i am in!
really confused!

school is on back burner i am being bad

BUUUUT i have a new girlfriend named green ds lite! i broke up with my other stupid blue transformer ds boring. okay i lied, he died. drowned himself. but thankfully cute green ds lite was available. she cooks and has very nice taste in cases ;)


i feel bad i broke my brothers ds, but my new one is so cute i think he will be okay with it since he can play with it whenever he wants! i also feel bad i spent money on a ds.... but its like my favorite thing to doooo



and i have some extra money... so i guess it was the best time....

Buy one of these from me! I have 6 for sale, 20 bux each!!!

My grandma set me the itinerary for our trip! I am so excited for this! 5am plane rides!

The monster for the print exchange I have been worried about for the last 2 months! My scanner cut some of it off, and it has bigger borders. The letter press is my god I am serious.

1. started wellness tennis on the 6th. Added it last minute, and i was super nervous that the whole class would be sexy slim tennis men, but thankfully the whole class had never played tennis.
2. hung out with this kid i worked with, i hated him when i worked with him and he hated me back, but he hated me for no reason so i made it a point to prove i was worth talking to. We had been talking online for everrr, and i finally met with him in person again. i am proud of myself for not being awkward and nervous which is a new experience for me. means my confident is getting higher.
3.my bikes back tire went flat again, but i learned how to change the tube! had to get help from my brothers to attach the tire though :(
4. B+ in animation!

5. Most importantly. Laurie looked at my final print for More Human that Human (pic soon) and showered me with compliments. She told me that I had real talent. I of course assumed she was just saying things, but she quickly assured me she doesnt bullshit with people, that with how early on I am in the print classes, and how good I am right now, that I am going to do very very well. She told me about these print conventions that happen every year, and said that she recommends that I set up a table (which you dont usually do when you first attend those things). I don't know she really boosted my ego, and I really believe she was telling me the truth. I am happy. I want to just make more and more prints.

the sink in the basement that collects the water from the washer is no longer draining. well it does drain but it takes over a week, which is usually fine with my clothing washing habits. This time however I have no clean pants and I just did a load without thinking.

SO i have to haul weird grey water that smells like sulfur in buckets and dump it outside. It is sort of enjoyable.

I wish I had more beer to drink today as it is the 4th of july. I am alone doing loner things, listening to This American Life like i might die if i miss a program, finally going to take a shower. Spend the whole night at the studio.

why are people so interested in celebrities? i dont really understand. I dont really care that Michael Jackson died and i am tired of hearing about it.

but! i got my bike back! and that is worth everything in the world foreverrr.

i love letter press.

today was good!!!!!

i actually woke up earlier than 11 so I made it to printmaking where right when i got there Laura Zamora asked me to help her out. She told me it was sort of selfish on her part since it was her work, but i was psyched! She taught me how to print screen prints using this magical vacuum table and even let me print one of them for her. It was amazing. This one kid was doing a sweet pokemon print and i am mad because i have been holding back from doing those, and now if i do one I will be a copy cat.

but SHE TAUGHT ME HOW TO SCREEN PRINT!!! Hahaha just a little bit. I like her, someday i wont be so awkward. I am being SO AWKWARD. Oh well.

Me and John Lysak have a date to letterpress on monday! So I can finally give Justin George his print exchage GAG. I am tired of the idea and it doesnt even make sense I dont care anymore.

Blahblah animation sucks, but it doesnt matter.

Me and leslie went to erie and dropped off our bikes! Then we went to Old Navy and I got 2 damaged items of clothings for nothinggg. I also stole the cutest pair of shoes ever. The alarm went off on Leslie and we didnt even get in trouble hahaah.

Bought cheap books at Borders.

STOLE A 23 SLICE OF SALMON. God I am so excited about that salmon.

I am dying my hair so it is no longer orange. I can't wait to get high tonight.

we had to make character to animate a basic walk with, and this is the lovely lady and her simplified design i decided on. She has a gimpy leg and her tits flop everywhere when she limps around. She is a truckstop prostitute! My animation teacher told me he liked her so much he was going to use her in one of his animations. !!

this morning i got an email from my grandmother inviting me to be her guest to fly to California with her and then drive up to Portland stopping at various relatives and friends houses. this will be awesome if it works out! the only stipulation is I have to be #1 perfect child. It isn't hard for me to act like i care about waspy things like my family does, but I just feel sick doing it. I don't like the idea of compromising myself for my family, but if i am being treated I should def not be selfish and act like a bum.


my dad asked me if i would have to shave my legs for this excursion, and i told him that i would! (keep in mind my legs are hairier than any mans). I told him i was sad about it, and he was like "well it will grow back in an hour and a half anyways so you dont need to worry"
HAHAHAHA

I also keep waking up late, i have alarms set for 7am, go to bed at 1am every night and still i don't ever wake up until 9, which means i wake up pissed off :(


to make things even BETTER, today I left for school at 10:15 or something and i get halfway there and my bikes back tire just blows out. Just gone! So i have to walk home in the rain, and here I am now depending on people again. Leslie will have to drive me to school every morning until I get it fixed. Thankfully we were planning on taking our bikes to Erie tomorrow anyways to get them fixed up!


my print projects are taking me forever to figure out. why does it take me weeks to draw up ideas? blahblah. wait i know the answer, i spend all the time out of school not doing anything. its making my skin crawl. i dont know why i dont do anything. AHHH

WHY DOES MY CAT MEOW ALL THE TIME?!

She has plenty of food and water, and plenty of things to do around her, but she still comes in my room and meows at me all the fucking time!!! AHHHH

I did two versions of the same print, one gray one with yellow.

The problem is, this print (so also it's twin) needs a name! If you give it a good title, and if you want me to, I will send you a print from whichever color you want! Numbered and signed of course.

had a birthday party last night, and at first i was excited and happy but by the time some girl i didnt really want coming showed up, and then proceeded to bore me with her bitchy stories about people i don't even care about i sort of realized it wasn't going to turn out like i expected, so i started drinking a lot. HAHAHA. It would have been a good time if I hadn't invited zack,bobby,bear,darrin, and jordan because they were not only rude to me they were just being ungrateful.

I spent 8 hours cleaning the house and making food, and they just made fun of it. I don't know it pissed me off and made my night sour. I didn't really get to hang out with the people I wanted to. On top of that things started out pretty awkward, because the people that showed up at the same time really didn't get along.

Zack Adelhardt bought me a bottle of wine though! And a lot of nice people came! I just wish the nice people and I hung out together in a good party way instead of the rude immature boys making fun of me and my party loudly (which how is a hostess supposed to recover from in a way that is not awkward?), just making sure they were the center of attention.

PRINT EXCHANGE ISSUES.

The theme is "MORE HUMAN THAN HUMAN"

so these are my brainstorming ideas:

-obvs like a super hero or something
-literal human with mutation, such as more than one head, abnormal amount of body parts, or even that swallowing a twin idea, with the body pressed against the inside of main guys body
- stone child, or actually now that i am thinking about it i love birth mutations, so I might do that for another print series this summer. `

actually i am having a hard time clearly thinking of what the human condition is to me. like what makes someone human, is it the fact they are an upright mammal that thinks, or is it the complete opposite of animal instincts. I DONT KNOW. THat's what's holding me back :(

Anyways, also ideas of
-catholics always trying to fight the urge to sin and trying to get other people to the RIGHT side trying to be more human that human
-a completely inconspicuous human, just a figure, just boring.

but my right now idea, that I still don't like that much but at the same time it gives me opportunity to try out a few things is
-a non human figure, such as a monster is what i am leaning towards because there is flexibility and room to make a cool monster right, and this guy will be doing something pretty mundane, such as buying socks while talking to his nagging jewish mother on the phone. I DONT KNOW.

So to deal with this huge block of anxiety i have been acting like i have full days by small goals (see below), and i am just trying to draw monsters, and trying to get this done by the end of the month! which means in a week! And I am also trying to make a design for my birthday party which i should do right this second. since my birthday party is saturday.


i need to put lotion all over myself

after i stopped working i have spent my days accomplishing small small goals with little to no importance. i should be working on my print exchange! I am having so much trouble with it, and I know it is because I am just intimidated by the fact its my real chance to show I am creative.


So I have accomplished making a meal of falafel with two types of vegan cakes which i served to sara, leslie, adam, and janae and no one had ever had falafel so it was a pleasure that everyone enjoyed it. Janae even bought pita's and feta cheese (which she had never had, and loved!).

I went shopping 3 days in a row which was sort of sick, food shopping of course. Got my glasses adjusted and bought two books for 6 dollars, one of them is about fruit!


Been reading the Final Frontiersman which is about Heimo Korth who lives very far from anyone else in Alaska and traps a lot. So far I like it. I am amazed at how he can do it. I hope someday I can strip myself.

Taught Leslie how to ride a bike! That was awesome!

Took out my stiches!

Played catch with a real baseball mitt! SPORTS!!!

Made crappy pita bread.

So, a whole lot of nothin.

What's worse is if I am tired, since it's summer, I usually lay down to take a nap, and these naps are always 3+ hours. Which when you go to take a nap at 6 waking up is just depressing. I have done it every day and I just hate it. I feel like I am severely missing my day. I should start setting alarms. Right now I feel like I could just go to bed.